Hello. sorry for not updating. friday's performance ended succesfully. just that i danced a few wrong steps. aft performance, went home slp. at night, came out meet sherman to ton. at mac, play stepmania. aft that 3am plus, jiawei and zhendong came. we encountered some spooky things in the toilet. which scare the hell outta us and we're fully awake. went home about 7.30am in the morning. it was fun, someday.. we sould just do it again.

staurday meet sherman, wanxian, amanda about 7plus. went to sp to buy camp stuffs, etc. passed by arcade. was tempted, so went in to play-.- soon after.. went home. nothing much. actually planned to ton. cos some old man was staying at my hse. but not much ppl wanna ton, so cancelled it. oh well, i just swallowed everything that i see. i wouldn't want to quarrel anymore with her or him. i'll just pretend i dont see anything.

today, which is a sunday. is gona be a "stay at home day" not planning to go out. i wanna stay at home pack my camp things. and chiong stepmania.tmrw's camp! somehow, dont really look forward to it.

Anyway, N levels are coming real soon! Gambate! Wish you guys ALL THE BEST! GOODLUCK!

Regina; i'm more than happy. cos i'm acting it all out.

Having severe headaches now :[
had dance rehersal today. tmrw's the actual performance. i'm so nervous! :{ so worried that i'll make a fool of myself. zzz, today during rehersals, the first round, i danced a few wrong steps. was super paiseh lah-.- too nervous liao. cant imagine tmrw man. praying hard that everything goes smoothly tmrw. hope i dont bring the group down.

Ltr gona meet eezy, atikahO, and maybe jiawei. go buy tmrw teachers' day celebration de things. free periods from 9am- 11am. having a party i think. but i will not be in class :[ sad. haha. going to buy mrs tay a present also. cos i love her so much! :]

took pics today. will post them when amelia send me. and the video of our dance :}
wee~ evrything must go well tmrw!!
Dancers jiayou !


Regina; cannot lose face. i'll do my best, ://

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS TOH RONGYING :]

thanks for being by my side all the time, sharing my happy and unhappy moments. not forgetting those times when we laugh and laugh and laugh like crazy when you ton at my house. i really miss those times together. i cherish this friendship very much and you're the only person which i can say understands me well. 5 years of friendship and still counting. i want to be there for you just like when you are there for me. yah lah, i know now got songchen no need me liao right. haha-.- just kidding. last long eh :] meet up real real soon. i love you, ah ma! :}

Regina; cant be happier. guess, she's the only one who really understands me and wht i went thru.

today aft dance went back to gym. took pics -.- yeah yeah, below.
whatever-.- not in the mood now.



oh,my results. here it is, totally sucks :{

Maths : 29/40
chemistry: 7/34
physics:13/40 or 35{cant remember}
geography: 15/ 25
the rest haven take back. well, but i'm happy enough tt i pass my maths :} like finally! -.-




anyway, today cant sucks even more :[

duh. fine, blame me ok ? i'm finewith it.




now, those f-ing chinaas are fighting over some stupid brainless things-.- fuck.
they forced me to shout at them. i already try to control. cos it takes two hands to clap. but now what time already? knn, still at there shout at each other. pcb. thanks to you guys. my day is even more worst. fuck off lah. fucking chinaaas.

Regina; motharfarkha. i'm f-ing happy. sick and tired ://

I only want a peaceful life, a simple one. its okay if both of you dont get along and divorced. yes, you two have divorced. & i have to act like i dont care. both of you get to live your own life now. i cant do anything to change the fact & i'm fine with it. dont ever ask me to choose between the both of you. dont threaten to disown me or say i side with him or wht. tell you something,.. if i can choose, i rather not to be here.

bring your guy home. i'm fine with it. close one eye. BUT DONT EXPECT ME TO CALL HIM. EVEN IF YOU BEAT THE HELL OUTTA ME, I STILL WUN CALL. GET IT RIGHT! AND HE'S STAYING AT MY HSE, DONT EXPECT ME TO RESPECT HIM. I WILL RESPECT HIM, WITH MY ASS! i will never never give in to you, pls get it right. call me whatever you want, say i'm disrespectful, whatever. i still wouldn't give a damn. because i'm so so tired. scold me, hate me all you want. say its my fault, say i dont give you face. i didn't ask to be born likethis. if i can choose, my life would be more happier den now. definitely better!

dont you think you've changed? i just wanna go back to those times whenever i reach home, you'll always be there.. with lunch prepared for me. now.. whenever i'm back home.. the house is either full of chinaaas, and you're nowhere to be found or you're home with tt guy or preparing to go out. and i have to eat on my own and fend for myself. and in the night, you;re either at other man's hse or at home slping or worst even, dead drunk. and where were you when i needed someone to talk to? did you realised when your daughter wasn't in good mood? or do you even bother to be a listening ear? ever thought of why your daughter become likethis? because of all of you. i didn't ask to be like this. i never want to be likethis too. i hate it when he's in my hse. thats always why we'll quarrel. dont "please" me to call him. i will neverdo so.

please dont force me to lose my temper.i'm so sick and tired. this is getting worst and worst. i'm still wishing that someday, when i reach home.. you'll be there for me with lunch prepared.

yes, it takes two hands to clap. i'm gona shut up and go out soon. i dont know where i'm going cos i didn't even plan to go out in the first place. i guess, now i have to.


this time, i think.. you were sort of there for me. thanks and i really appreciate it.



Regina; broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces.

Hi -.-
today met my sister, kenny, and his two little cousins. which are so cute :} i think one is call weiyang. another one idk-.- lol. was supposed to meet at amk hub. but i went to bishan instead and waited for like half an hour-.- in the end, went back to amk hub to meet them. wht a gundo-.- haha.

went to amk hub's arcade find them. saw kenny playing the big sweet machine de game. he actually changed more den 50dollars to play that. but i must admit it is fun :] we won 3 jackpots. without noticing, we spent like 130bucks on that machine? we've got i think more den i kg of sweets-.- 2soft toy and a stitch bubble blower thingy. which is damn cute. haha. 130buck-.- omg.
haha. went to sun plaza aft that with them. met py and sherman also.
heh. my sister also nt bad at ddr. but old already. speed cannot too fast. well, but she's good :} once again spend money.. lol. spend almost 200bucks today? abit heartpain ah. play arcade can play until soo much. i call this " arcade day" -.-

my sister challenge sherman to play. haha. was fun to see them play lah. i also got play. like so many rounds. very tired sia. den aft that went home.

woo~ i so love my sister man. when i'm with her. i'll forget all my troubles. but when i'm back to this home.. _l_ duh!

oh, and i miss my dajie! :{




Goodnight Readers, if there are any.




Regina; all you did was to stop the bleeding, but the scar will stay forever.

The only picture i can upload.

Cause today, you walked out of my life.

I still cant transfer the pictures to my laptop :[[ sigh. nothing much. maths paper was okok ? but i'm still worried that i'll fail. tmrw's paper is social studies. last paper to go. finally~ :/



oh, anw. i think i've let go :// 3 cheers for me ? *clap* -.-
your eyes, telling me lies. making me to find myself.
oh whatever, i've kept my promises to both of you. you happy? tell you what, i'm fcuking happy abt it-.- _l_ oh, bother.

yes, & this life cant sucks even more. please let me be free, i cant face the truth.
& tonight i'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through :/


Broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces ://


I suppose i'm nothing without you.
all i have to say; is GOODBYE.

I'll believe everything you say.



Regina; there's only hate, there's only tears, there's only pain. there is no love here.

Got back my F&N and chinese papers today. was SUPER SUPER SUPER disappointed with both results. sigh. i got 25 1/2 for my F&N which is over 40. and 28 for my chinese which is over 50. i'm damn disappointed lah. especially in my chinese. _l_ my class de china gt first. 40 over 50. kns! i hate chinaaass. now and forever.

oh, and today during maths. i was drawing graphs. i asked mrs tay how to draw. and she realise i dont have earaser and ruler. then she go take den give me-.- hahaha. like so good lah. aft class went to return to her. she ask me to keep it :} like pathethic sia, i earaser and ruler also dont have -.- but den.. she's the greatest teacher ever. aft school, went to staff room look for her with the usual clicks. asked her abt graphs. cos tmrw's paper is maths. she taught ne the questions. dont really understand, but nvm. -.- well, aft that. talked abt some personal things. together with amanda. CHEER UP LAH, AMANDA. i understand how you feel. lets beat the ass outta those f-ing chinaaaaass.

went straight home aft that. think gona slp awhile den study for maths. i must pass my maths this time! cant afford to fail anymore.



& i'm so not okay :// shitxzxzxzx _l_ i hate both you and ur lies.


Regina; it seems like just ytd that i'm laughing with you. i miss those times :// so nt okay. bahhhhhhhhh :0

went to study with sherman, py, amelia. well, saw you-.- nothing much uh. yeah, just fake a smile babey. me too :} thats cool uh-.- oh, watever. will update pictures next time. somthing wrong with my cable.


Goodnight Readers(i dont think there are any-.-)







Regina; & these streets are filled with memories. + misery -.-

just reached home. i screwed my geography and chemistry. sure fail lah. tmrw's paper also, physics. english sure can pass. but physics,.. like !#$%$^@ irritating. forget it, fail den fail -.- anw, went to eat aft school. not everyone is really happy?-.- well, nevermind about it. its okay. went home straight aft that.

reached home, saw my mum. and i remembered today she went family court with my dad. well, her friend was in my house too. i went to the kitchen to wash my hand. than her friend which is a man, call me.. ,

that man : " girl ah, ask you ah.."
me : (look at him.)
that man : " i saw your father today, i talked to him. he say he wanted to bring you to your grandma hse to stay but you refuse to. and he said you didn't want him anymore, izzit true?"
me: (shake my head) " no" {i was thinking, its nt tt i dont want. is i cant. and whts your problem anyway.} [ i was rather upset by what he said] i walked back to my room.

i sat down on my bed. his words keep repeating itself in my mind. " he said you didn't want him anymore" yes, this sentence. i was upset about this. tears started pouring out. thinking of those times we've had. i want him, i didn't say i dont. i dont know why he's thinking this way. but is not i dont want him. i have so many things to think about. if i do this, it'll affect another person. if i chose to stay with him, my mum's gona sever ties with me. and if i stay with my mum, he's thinking that i dont want him anymore. i really dont know what to do.

oh, fuck.



Regina; so please, let me be free. i just wish, you were here to share my burdens.

well, i just woke up. i went to sleep about 6.30pm? i only planned to sleep one hour. and i overslept. now is already 12.53am according to my computer. now i dont even have time to study for today's(190808) test. tmrw is chemistry and geography. but are sure fail subjects.. sigh. anw, ytd's (180808) paper was chinese and F&N. I think i'll pass both F&N and chinese. but not with very desirable marks. no time to finish the paper _l_ fuck sia. i think todays paper will be worst -.- i dont even understand what that mr simon chew was talking abt the whole year. like crap. i realise i know nothing abt chemistry. this time, i'm in deep trouble ://

maybe gona meet py and sherman ltr to study. maybe catching the first train. sigh. still i'm prepared that i'll fail. no matter how hard i study i still will fail. so whats the point of studying-.- how i wish i can just quit school. zzz, maybe its a little exaggerating over here. but all i wanted to say was



CA2'S DRIVING ME CRAZY ://





Regina; i think i starting to let go of you already. although i dont wish to, but i have to. yes, i'll listen to you, my dear.

& I never loved you; now you're free to leave.
I know you're happy to do so. So please go ahead.
I know that i may regret, maybe now, maybe someday.
But its all gona end.



wooo~ i so love myself-.-
nth much today. went collect hoodies. den go sp.
anw, i was with jiawei.
going to study F&N now.
CA2 STARTS TMRW _l_
i hate it! expect to fail alot.



Regina; fake fake fake. just fucking leave.

i'm lazy to post today.
not really in the mood.
MOODSWINGS ARE REALLY SWINGING ME TO NOWHERE-.-
i'm so sick and tired. someone, pls save me.

yes, if only you were here to give words of comfort, that was all i needed.




Last but not least,

MOSG - MINISTRY OF SOUR GRAPES ROCKS



Regina; i need your words of comfort, but i know there ain't any.

well, i'm so tireddddddd :{
i wanna sleep. today woke up at 5.20 -.- damn early.
cos i dont wanna be late and wanna reach sch before7.20am.
reached sp abt 6.50 to meet reny? wait for jw and amelia. we left at abt 7.10am.
i was damn worried that i wouldn't reach before 7.20.
so we cabbed down -.- from sp to school. which causes me $4.90.


well, was sort of glad when i reach school abt 7.17am? went to collect my evaluation.
yeah, i was so so so so so so disappointed. you are so cold to me. i dont know why. and i think i dont wanna know? all you said was, "uh" -.-
fine. maybe you're born liketat. its okay anyway.

i'm getting used to it. thks for helping me anw.


i'm just disappointed..i'll feel better soon.

the modern dancers are selected for teachers' day celebartion! *clap*
buck up dancers!
yea, sort of happy that we are selected. finally, we dancers.. get to perform-.-


Regina; yes, its alright. "uh" cool =.=

nothing much. lazy to blog today.

anw, as promised amanda(above, right)

this girl next to me, asked me something on first day in school on 2006(sec1)

its likethis :

i walked into the classroom, sat at the back alone.

everyone was seated except amanda(above, right)

i think she panicked abit. she walked towards me and asked....

Amanda: hi, ke yi gen ni yi qi zuo mah?(can i sit with you?)

Regina: i gave the sian diao look -.- and nodded my head.

i was thinking " walao, want sit den sit lah. still must ask meh?)

Amanda: (quickly sat down) looking very nervous.

we talked about this today. and amanda told me this:

Amanda: you know hor, you caused me to worry for the whole night? i was so scared to go to school and didn't feel like going. cos no friends. den you like fierce. (laughs*)

LOL, Amanda. sorry, i didn't mean to scare you. paiseh ah. hahahaha -.-

oh, and special thanks to Rina and peiyun for helping me with my coursework with all the information needed, sorry to disturb you! and weiren for helping me also. thanks ppl, i really appreciate :}

Regina; but i've broken all my promises to you. why do you do this to me?/so easily

Oh, today's date is

{13 august2008 }

{editted}

i mean its ok, i'm trying.



Regina; i supposed i'm missing you. i know, you're somehw avoiding me.

currently having moodswings again -.- just reached home after dance, training for teachers' day. wasn't really in the mood. well, what could i say. school is boring me day aft day. hahaha -.- it has like become meaningless to go to sch since i wanna forget you -.- today, mrs tay told me nt to live for you, but live for myself -.- eh, i told her.. no, i'm living for myself. (give her sian diao look)
well, i know she mean well. anw, she's th best teacher ever. even my mom likes her-.- but who cares abt my mom-.- wth.

another thing, i wasn't wrong in saying friends are craps. nt all are craps. maybe just a few. you know.. when they nid you, they come to you. when they dont, they will just dump you aside. oh well, friends come and go isn't it?

oh, wish us all the best to the upcoming performance-.- all of a sudden, i dont really feel like performing for teachers' day.

anyway, saw him today-.- like,, ok. was sort of crazy at firts. but den, i remembered. i'm suppose to keep my promise. well, since i've told him and her that i've gt no feelings. i should do it right?
oh yeah, i'm struggling-.- well, this is life _l_
and i hate it.. VERY MUCH.


Regina; i'm struggling, but i'm still letting go.

1. Are you listening to music?
yes, listening to, Save you by simple plan
2. Are you wearing makeup?
No -.-
3. Do you like Chinese food?
yes obviously. i'm a chinese!
4. What were you doing at noon today?
i was either sleeping or surfing the net
5. Are you shy?
Sometimes/ most of the time?
6. When do you have Spring Break?
Not in Singapore we don't
7. Do you like cats?
Haha yes , but i LOVE dogs
8. What is your natural hair color?
dark brown?
9. Do you have Facebook?
I hate facebook
10. What year do you/did you graduate?
-
11. Is your favorite color blue?
No
12. Do you like Eminem?
In the past
13. Does Hot Topic scare you?
why the hell would it scare me?-.-
14. Do you have an older sister?
yes, i've gt two very loving ones
15. Is there a necklace you have that you wear 24/7?
Nope.
16. Ever been to a foreign country?
yessss -.-
17. Do you support the war in Iraq?
No , in fact i dont care
18. Have you ever watched America's Next Top Model?
Yes.
19. Can you speak French?
no, for goodness sake
20. Do you like doughnuts?
Not anymore
21. Can you play the guitar?
i can strung the guitar, but you know it sounds like @#$%
22. Is it raining right now?
nope.
23. What state do you live in?
-
24. What time zone are you in?
i dont know, i dont care too
25. Do you ever listen to the Backstreet Boys?
yes, i love them.
26. Do you shop at Hollister?
S'pore doesn't have it
27. Do you like using pens or pencils better?
I like both
28. Do you sing well?
I don't know, maybe?
29. Do you like chocolate?
Who doesn't? (:
30. Have you ever baked cookies?
yes, i just did ytd.
31. Do you have a driver's license?
No , i'm only 15 -.-
32. Will you/did you get a car the minute you turn/turned 16?
no?
33. Do you read the newspaper?
Yes
34. Did you watch the Academy Awards?
What? No.
35. Do you want to be an actress?
Never did,
36. Would you shave your head for $900?
yes, i'll shave it even if its for 90.
37. Can you do a backflip?
tried to, but no
38. Are you on any sports teams at your school?
No my school is lame :/
39. Do you write in a journal/diary?
yes :///
40. Is it fun to make snow angels?
Never made one before but I don't care, really
41. Do you watch Desperate Housewives?
No
42. Do you make jewelry?
HAHAHAHAHA!! i wish!
43. Are you failing any classes right now?
I ALWAYS FAIL MY SUBJECTS -.-
44. When was the last time you skipped a class?
er.. cant remember.
44. Have you ever pretended to be sick and stayed home from school?
i just did today (: in fact, most of the times
45. Have you ever been to the circus?
yes.
46. Are infomercials boring to you?
Yes .
47. When was the last time you ate something?
15mins ago?
48. Have you ever had your appendix taken out?
no.
49. Ever been drunk?
yes?
50. What do you plan to do on your 21st birthday?
have sex-.- i'm just kidding.
52. Do you/did you go to a private school?
No
53. Are you a good soccer player?
no, but i can play. i once got a runner up during sports feast
54. Have you ever lied to your parents, but then got caught later on?
No?
55. Have you ever had stitches?
No, gross man.
56. On hot days, do you sit outside and tan?
if i'm going sentosa?
57. Do you like swinging on swingsets?
Yes, very.
58. Do you like planting flowers?
HAHAHAHA, NO!
59. Do you bake well?
yes, i think.

yes, i think i'm letting go. 3 cheers for me? hahaahaha-.- i dont know why am i faking it till now. it doesn't matter right? cos you are all faking it too. yea, currently having moodswings. sometimes i really wonder. do i really really deserve all this? this family, these friends and.. izzit meant to be that we'll end up this way? i think i'll have to end it sooner or later. perhaps she's right. i should let go, to reduce my pain. now, i'm alone, so alone. and i'm so tired of being all alone. yes, i guess.. i'm trying things too hard. sorry, i'll learn to let go. dont worry, i shall learn to keep my promises. and forget you. i'll keep those memories tough. i'm sick and tired. pls, bring me.. far far away.



Regina; dont worry, i think.. maybe i'm fine

Today, i found this cute little jack russell dog road along the small road as i was going to buy something at the minimart.
wanxian spotted it. at first i tot, gt ppl. but i realised the dog has got many many injuries. his forehead was bleeding :[[
i carried him to the side and asked amanda to buy water and dog food from the minimart. aft that, we rushed back to the multi-purpose hall where we were suppose to have dance. sherman, wanqi, py were shocked when i brought him back. he is so poor thing lurrr. i see him, i think of muffin. they are the same breed.
i used some water to clean his wounds. can see that he is really in pain.
huiting, zhu came. both also felt pity for the dog. i decided to bring it home, no matter what. but i'll have to take it to the vet first, to treat the wounds. jaslin came, so i ask her if can ask her father bring us there. woo~ her father agreeded. we went to jln kayu. the queue was long as we didn't make any appointment. finally is our turm. my shirt and pants has got blood stains -.-
we went in, the vet say that he is lucky nt to have broken any bones. blah blah blah. came out, took the medicine. jaslin's father helped me pay first, i told her i'll return her if the owner of the dog cant be found.
we bring to dog to my hse. jaslin, wanxian, py, sherman, jiawei came. the dog so cute lah. and really really reminds me of my muffin. this dog is like an angel, very gentle. soon, david came. they go buy leash and bring the dog go walk walk.
oh oh, & i named the dog " Chao tah"
jaslin called me, told me somebody contacted her father abt the lost dog. thank goodness, the owner was found! i was sad to give it away, but i knoe he'll be happier. the owner even allowed us to visit him whenever we want, just give them a call. man, i'm starting to miss it so so much.
I MISS CHAO TAH T_______T
i shall visit him on thursday:]



Regina; chao tah :} yes, i'm letting go..

I'm lazy to post abt the things that happen today.

All i wanted to say in this post is:

it's okay, i'll learn to get used to it. i know you dont love me. that's a fact that i cant change. and i know it nv will change. yes, get on with your life and ignore me. i'm fine with it, really. i guess, i'll try nt to contact you anymore. i'll just have to learn.. to hate you. or should i say.. learn to hate myself? yes, i hate myself, for who i am, for the way things turn out this way. you nv were there for me, when i need words of comfort. or should i say, no one. all are craps. yes, craps. all are fucking craps. so wht if i'm starting to hate all these over again? you dont seem to give a damn. all i have to do now, is just to fake a smile, and get on with this life. i;m already torn inside. it doesn't matter whether i'm perfect outside anot anymore.
family, love, friends? - yes, all are craps.



pls take note: DANCE PRAC TMRW @ SEMB BLK 404 MULTI-PURPOSE HALL
9AM-12PM (practising for teachers' day audition)


Regina; maybe i'm too blame, maybe we're the same. oh, i'm fucking fake. & i'm bloody happy abt it.

Just when i was in a happy mood to go out & meet my sis and frens. This mother fucking knnbpcb man come my hse. totally ruined my mood. yes, and this mother fucking knnbpcb man is my mother's so called bf. who has been hurting and torturing our lifes. or should i say ruining? now, this hse stinks. stinks of that man's beer smell. once again, i was crying. why didn't i have a better life? wht have i done? what?! do i really deserve all these? why? some kind soul tell me can? i'll be grateful if you can tell me. was it the sins that i did or was it just meant to be? He's fucking irritating. what business izzit of him when i'm going out? he's nt even my father. fucking cb! well, as expected. I was scolding for being rude by my mother. for giving attitude to this stupid old man. yes, i agree, my mum's eye must have been full of shit! yes yes yes, my fault again. he's right. all he does is slp, drink slp. & why am i even crying for this stupid family? this stupid old man ruining my life when it is already rotting. its getting worst and worst everyday. i'm starting to hate this family all over again. when i'm learning to like it t least a bit. now, its all back to before. where this man comes in and out of my hse. i dont know, wht to do. i really dont know. i'm sick & tired of crying. of see-ing such things, someone pls bring me away. far far away. i tired. physically and mentally. crying for this family is no longer worth it. or maybe i should say, i'm already getting used to it? but it totally sucks! _l_ nobody will ever understand.
and nobody will try to.



any kind souls out there,? willing to let me stayover for the night?



Regina; if only you know, and were there to say words of comfort. i wished.

yesterday morning met wanqi, wanxian, jaslin, amelia,yuqing. we went to jeluntung cc.
blah blah blah. assemble at the field there, which was muddy and @#$%^&. i walked around to see if you came. well, didn't see you was sort of disappointed. aft some marching or whatsoever. went to the carnival. walked around, was sort of boring. all of a sudden, jiawei call me. " Reginaaaa, i saw.. ..." den i quickly turn around. wow-.- you came. was happy lah of course. but den.. ...

well. was bored. so we went to blk326 there sit, talked, camwhore(pics are below). sherman, peiyun came from ms loh's stall. i followed them to jeluntung cc. saw you. i was at the entrance. i asked sherman and py to go back. they didn't want. so i walk off to find the rest. aft awhile, went back there again, with all the rest. this time we enter from the back stage. well, all i could say was.. i shouldn't have appeared right? you seem to leave once you saw me. pkay, it was my fault. i'm sorry. causing you and your frens to leave. maybe, you just didn't want to see me. yes, i regretted going in to jeluntung cc. i'm sorry.

aft that we went outside. i sat at the staircase there. didn't talk much. huiting they all went to yishun. left, jw, jaslin, me, wanxian. waiting for py and sherman. they came. went to arcade. play ddr. jaslin pierced tongue. amelia came. went to slack around. den cherlynn came. amelia went town with her, we went 357. with reny jiawei. well, at there nothing to do. so they went up one of the blocks to splash water down at ppl. (am i suppose to say this?) hmm, went home abt4 plus.

i reached home, actually plan to meet wx. but i was tired so i tot i nap awhile. but i overslept. i woke up at 2am-.- my mum told me desmond they all come find me. zz-.-
i check my phone, batt low. i recieved i think more den 12 miss calls. sorry ppl, was too tired..
replied all msges. went back to slp.

well, today. going sell away my phone, and get a new one:]]
woo~ i love my sis. she's paying for it. hahahaha-.-
meeting wx, she's going to with me to sell my phone.
maybe going to somewhere to celebrate national day? idk.
hmm, will blog tonight :] hopefully with more pics.



Regina; yess, i shouldn't have appeared. and you wouldn't have to leave. i'm sorry

hello hello-.-
just came back from wanxian-er~'s hse downstairs. went to her hse in the evening to find yokeqing:]] help her make cookies! hahhaha, but din help much. but i've had fun though. Jaslin also came. she took yokeqing's cookie dough, make it to small pieces. wanxian's mother helped to bake it. once bake hao le, must let it cool.. aft that, helped jaslin tie the plastic she use to put her cookies. she's bringing it back home to it. help yoeqing tie hers too:]] she's so hardworking lah.
she almost did everything herself. *proud of her* hahaha:]]

when jaslin left for home, yokeqing also. wanxian er~ and me sat under her blog chat chat. chat alot of things. oh, fuck. & i realised i have such a @#$% fren. shall nt name out. -.- i nvr expect him/her do this type of things. aft tat , talk other things. and we recieved some *confidential* info. wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, me and ah xian er, wassss fuckinggggg pisssssssed offfff >:-//

okay, all i have to say is: Stop using other ppl's effort and tell some other ppl that is urs. dont u have integrity? oh yeah, i guess so. you dont have. and i didn't know you were this type of person. sorry to say, but i'm disappointed. pls dont ask me is who.

anw, tmr's national day celebration. oh, hope its fun?-.- meeting wanxian-er~ in the morning,
shall slp earlier tonight? goodnight readers :]]


Regina; but i've broken all my promises to you. why did you do this to me?/so easily.

oh, & i forgot to blog abt this PIERCING SEASON/TREND in my class.
almost alot pierced their lips today, with the service of hanjie, amelia. haha-.-
our class becamme the black market for piercings. so ppl, if u wanna pierce.
pls approach them.

Amelia- Pierced eyebrow today
zihui- pierced tongue ytd
hayatti, israni, nadd, shahidah - pierced lips today.

-.- jaslin gona pierce tongue soon


oh well, it's the piercing season :]]

Hello -.-
changed my blogskin. Sherman chose it. Thanks sexy! i like it very much(:
anw, today morning went to sch. cabbed to sch. Thanks amelia & her mum!
reached sch. walked for morning run. went to F&N. Had practical, made some kueh.
It was called kueh dadar i think. okok loh. quite niceeee :]]]
aft school, went for maths revision class. i wanna go olympic studies trip to beijing
with mrs tay lah!): she say she'll help me :]] becos i was selected for beijing twinning programme.
so nid to change to olympics one. but nt confirm can go. i wish i can gooooo :[[ i want to go back there, remember the times we've had there last year. but this time, u're nt joining me.

aft revision class, went to cavana to eat with jaslin & jiawei. alan came. we sat there talking.
jaslin & alan went cwp. me& jw go walk around. when they come back, meet them, and zhendong. we go 404 basketball court find jason. i asked sherman come down join us. he ask me
meet him at salon. aft we go up one of the HDB , we went to pour water dow trying to aim
miss XXX. but failed. so we came down. LOL, joined jw they all. alot of funny things happen.

went home aft that. Oh & i have lots of homework nt done:{{
going to chiong ltr. sigh. IMY:{{



Regina; she goes left & you stay right

well, din go dance today. went home to sleep.
i slept till 8plus. sorry ppl, for nt going dance. not really in the mood.
& i'm very very tired. Mrs betsy george(bei-si zhuo zhi) smsed me.
ask me for a call from parents or an MC. well, my mum called her. she din
pick up. den is her problem liao lor. zzz-.-

oh, i'm so @#$%^ tired. how i wish i can sleep forever-.-
& school totally sucks! i'm starting to hate it now. there's a
mock test fpr maths tmrw. comfirm fail one lah. sigh..


& i feel so out of place. i'm going back to sleep again.


Regina; ya, you just dont care.

I'M FUCKING PISSED OFF.
FUCK OFF! _l_


friends are just CRAPS. (I MEAN IT)

oh, this is officially my 101th post.
sigh. today aft sch, went to cwp. bought a crocodile from
mini toons. if u press a daecayed teeth. it'll bite you.
gona bring it to sch tmrw for jiawei they all play.
and i realised my blog is lack of pictures. i'll try to update with more pics.

101 th post. i dont really know what to write.
sigh. just know as i was lying on the bed was thinking abt..
den felt like cryin. oh well, its the past already man. we'll nvr get back to
before. where we chat on the phone till late night. i know i know.
we'll nv be that way. but memories kept flashing back.
hw i wish we could be that way again..
thinking of wht present to buy for you. although its still early.
and i know you dont like to take presents. but, i dont care. still gona think of wht
to buy for you. though.. its still long. but nvm, i'll save up. and try to find the perfect gift.
JIAYOU, FOR PRELIMS ALRIGHT!

Regina; it tears me up inside, to see you. yeah, you're happy but it hurts to see that you're living well. and its nt becos of me.

1. Who was the last person you fell asleep on?
-No one

2. Who was the last person you couldn’t take your eyes off of?
-well, you know..

4. Are you a morning person or a night person?
-it depends

5. What would you do if you opened up your front door to a dead person?
-Scream ? faint.

6. Are you there for your friends?
-If I can, of course

7. Are you a forgiving person?
-It depends. actually, i think NO.

8. What do you drink?
-Cold plain water, strawberry milk (meiji) , pokka's peach/green tea

9. Were you dating the last person you kissed?
-yeah. but i hate it -.-

10. Do you want a relationship right now?
-well, maybe yes. but.. 0.o

11. Three feelings at the moment?
-Drained out. heartbroken. jealousy

12. What are you listening to right now?
-Akon- you can put the blame on me

13. The highlight of your week?
-School ?

14. Who were the last people you ate with?
-Rina & Yokeqing

15. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone?
- Wan wan

16. Do you like your mom?
-Sometimes/ depends. not most of the time

17. Who was the last person to text you?
- Sherman

18. Has anyone ever said you look like a celeb?
-No -.- if anyone did, he/she must be blind

19. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
-i dont know.

20. Ever had a drunken night in Mexico?
-i nv went to mexico

21. What are your plans for tonight?
-Sleep

22. If you could move somewhere else, would you?
-Sure , definitely

24. What’s the last piercing you got?
- -.-

25. Toilet papered someone’s house?
-No

26. If you had to change your name what would it be?
-I don't know, maybe.. CRAP?

27. Do you know if anyone likes you?
-I don't. But I'm guessing not

28. What did you dream about last night?
-Didn't dream

29. Do you want to be married right now?
-No

30. What were you doing at 4am this morning?
-i got up. becos my phone dropped on the floor

31. What do you usually do first in the morning?
-Check the time on my cell

32. Do you drink coffee on a regular basis?
-Nope.

33. Would you rather have a girlfriend/boyfriend or a friend with benefits?
-Boyfriend

34. Do you have feelings for anyone and if so, do they know?
-I do, he knows. but he doesn't like me .

35. How many different beverages have you had today?
-2

36. Any plans for today?
-I already had school

37. The first things you notice about the opposite sex?
-Hair

38. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
- whts JELLO?

39. Do you want children?
-Maybe ..

40. What was the last book you've read?
-cant remember

42. You're in the hospital, who on your TOP friends comes to visit you?
- i dont think anyone will. i dont have top frens.

43. If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be?
-aw? so? big FXCK?

44. Name things about the opposite sex that automatically turns you off.
-Egoistic, ugly, self-centered, irritating, cant stop talking

45. Are you excited about this weekend?
-not really.

46. Do people underestimate you?
-Don't know , maybe?

47. When you're in a bad mood, what will always put you in a better mood?
-Sleep or music

48. What do you hope to have in the future?
-Money

49. What's your favorite song?
-Fall for you?

55. Who last messaged you?
-Sherman.

56. Are you taller than 5'7"?
-yes.

57. What's your favorite color?
-Black grey red yellow and sometimes orange

58. Does it bother you when someone says they'll call you and they don't?
-i think so.

59. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
-No , i wish

60. Do you wish someone would call you?
-yeah. but he wouldn't for sure

01. Do you think 2008 is passing by quickly?:
-Way too fast

02. Do you have any desire to go to Japan?:
-Yeah,, who doesn't?

03. Do you prefer to travel by car or on foot?:
-Car, duh

04. Cinderella or Sleeping Beauty?:
-sleeping beauty

05. Have you seen the movie "A Beautiful Mind,"?:
-No

06. Do you think Jennifer Connelly is a good actress?:
-I don't care

07. Have you ever accidentally eaten something you hadn’t cooked properly?:
-Yes, of course. i'm an f&n student-.-

08. How often do you say "fxck"?:
-Too often (:

09. Do you like ducks?:
-No

010. What about rabbits?:
-maybe?

011. Do you have any big plans for this year?:
-No , never-.-

012. How old will you be this year?:
-I'm 14 turning 15 on october 19th

013. Would you like to go to Scotland?:
-Sure , anywhere outta spore will do.

014. Do you think ELVIS is overrated?:
-No

015. Tudor or Medieval?:
-Medieval

016. What would be a good reason to visit London?:
-Anywhere out of S'pore would seem like a an awesome place to visit, unless you're talking about third world countries

017. What is the weather currently like?:
-% @#!^&* hot

018. Do you have Microsoft Word or Microsoft Works?:
-Strangely, I do not have Microsoft WorKS-.-

019. Have you ever saved an animals life?:
-No

020. What can you taste right now?:
-Nothing

021. Who is more strict, your mum or your dad?:
-i dont know, seriously

022. Which set of grandparents are nicer?:
-mum's side are better. but dad's side is richer

023. Do you like Within Temptation?:
-Huh

024. Do you know your blood type?:
-O+

025. Have you ever been in a haunted house?:
-No, but a hauted mental hospital

026. Have you ever written or received a love letter?:
-Haha yes

027. What was the last thing/person you got fed up with?:
-People

028. Have you ever faked sick and got found out?:
-No

029. What was the last insult you gave?:
-i cant really recall

030. Have you ever been called a hippie?:
-No

031. What’s your favourite album at the moment?:
-None

032. Have you ever made a fake myspace profile to torment someone?:
-No

033. Which tastes better, Dr Pepper or Pepsi?:
-Neither

034. When was the last time you ate fast food?:
-ytd? i eat fast food almost everyday

035. What do you think of the "Suicide Girls"?:
-They all look alike to me

036. Are you ever ungrateful?:
-Yeah

037. How often do you update your pictures section on myspace?:
-My account's inactive

038. How many pictures do you have up?:
-

039. Does your bedroom need dusting?:
-Hell yeah

040. Have you ever ordered something online and it never came?:
-No

041. Do you have an ipod nano?:
-No

042. How often do you use public transport?:
-To school, after school. All my life.

043. Foundation or powder?:
-Foundation. , powder is also fine

044. What do you think of girls who refuse to wear make up?:
-I mean, it's not like a must to.

045. Do you think it’s weird?:
-No

046. Do you live near a beach?:
-I wish

047. How old do you think you will be when you move away from your parents?:
-That would take a long time to happen.

048. Do you like your parents?:
-Sometimes

049. Do you ever cut your own hair?:
-Yes

050. Are you disgusted by the whole size 0 debate?:
-What's that?

this afternoon went onlined. played msn games with weiren-.-
cos he was bored. lol-.- i lose to him sia. in the end owe him 2things.
zzz. he say he'll let me know wht it'll be when he xiang dao. lol.
aft that. went offline. now, online again.

oh oh, and modern dancers wun be performing for national day:[[[[[[[[[
cos jeluntung cc ppl missed out our names. kao.
nearly had a huge breakdown-.- we practise for like @#$%^& thousand times.
but in the end nt perforing. zzz_l_ instead we're performing it on teachers' day.
and and , i hate BEI-SI ZHUO-ZHI[betsy george] stupid_l_

&oh, i cant seem to log in my friendster. gt something wrong with
my laptop or something. zzz-.-sigh. sian, i've gt nothing to do now.
and i'm @#$%^&* bored. rarrrrrrw. someone save me T___T
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha-.-

maybe tmrw going sp. play DDR(:
woohooo~~ i've been waiting. wahahahhaahaha-.-

oh oh oh, i love my friends-.-
haha, random.

Regina; maybe its better this way D= for you. & maybe for me.

eh. nothing much to post. nt in a very gd mood.
sigh. relationships relationships. zzz-.-
hope my wan xian- er ~ will cheer up.
maybe is i dont understand. but den.. see her liketat
also very gek xim. sigh. cheer up lah.
sigh. hope she take gd care of herself. hm.
till here. ltr den update.



Regina; D:

I'm injured during dance today.
hahaha -.- but i'm nt blaming anyone okay.
zzz, anw. wanxian say my wound looks like nike sign-.-
lol, lame lah. hahaha-.-

anw. i'm tired. i wanna sleeppppppppp D:
i'm hungry ):
craving for macwings. WAHAHAHA-.-
maybe tmrw going vivo grab some stuffs.
rarrrrrrrrrwwwwwwww! pok liao. zzz.

anw, ppl. i'm currently selling fbt.
intrested pls tag the tagboard or text me.
thanks(:

Regina; i'm sorry i cant be perfect.