Sunday, September 28, 2008
I HATE THE PRESENT.
I KNOW I'LL BE HATING THE FUTURE.
This life cant sucks even more.
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I'm still glad that i knew you. You made me carry on.
I just wish you'll treat me a lil bit better. I'm willing to do anything for you.
no point trying so hard? idk.
I didnt feel better even after a good cry,
still as miserable.
I still dont understand why you treat me cold and hot. -.-
Alot of things today. Only gona mention a few.
Went to Jason's house. Play playstation, DDR 4th Mix. Something Jason said made me very shocked and upset. But i guess, i'll get over it? idk. But i swear, its like shit! _l_ But its not his fault.
Then went to watch 'Painted Skin' [ hua pi] with Jiawei and ZhenDong. Well, its a nice movie. But i felt extra. Yes, you know those kind of feelings? So i was like... moody? idk. Just didnt feel like talking much. Its fine since you didnt want to join. I think i'm fine with it. Oh well, nvm. Saw --- quite a few times today. I seriously dont understand whats going on. Ate mac aft that. Went home soon after.
Regina; i feel like shit. I'm just nothing after all.
Friday, September 26, 2008
Went to play pool with Weiren and Boonhock. Thanks and apologies to wanxian.
But was super paiseh. Cos i didnt really know how to play,
Anyway, its fun! Lets play again someday. Wait till, i've polished up my skills :]
HAPPYY BIRTHDAY!
Regina; Lets do it again! I love it :]
Thursday, September 25, 2008
After school went to sp with Amelia, Jiawei, Reny. Sherman went for chemistry lessons. We ate at Cavana. Reny left after eating. We met Yuxian and played basketball. Haha, been years since i last played.
Went home after that. Was superrrrrrr tired. Anyway, i think i wouldn't be updating often as i want to make use of my time revising. I want good grades for EOY! So i shouldn't slack anymore. I should start mugging!
Goodluck to those mugging hard for N lvls and EOY! :]
OH OH OH! Today is KhaiWee and Wei Jie's Birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D
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Tomorrow { 26sept 08 } is Wei Ren's Birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE =D
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Regina; I want those good times back.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Today FNN lesson was great but somehow sucks too laaaaa. Baked cookies, cookies tasted great! The sucky part is that ---------------
After school went to eat with the usual ones at sp. After that went home. Nothing much.
Anyone can keep kitten? If can, please contact me asap. The picture of the kitten is in my previous previous post. Call/ Text me if you're interested.
Anyway, if you've noticed.. I've changed my blogsong. Previous one was "Fool Again by Westlife "Yesterday i changed to "Monsoon by Tokio Hotel" Today, its " Crush by David Archuleta"
Cant make up my mind which song. I love these both songs :] The lyrics are very meaningful.
2 more days------
I cant pretend that i'm not nervous when i see you.
Wishing for that someday, things will change for good
Suddenly thought of those times we've had overseas & when we came back. We were so close. Messaging almost everyday, sometimes chatting on the phone when you're playing games. Yes, i miss those times. Why cant we go back to that?
"Why do I keep running from the truth?All I ever think about is youYou got me hypnotized, so mesmerizedAnd I've just got to know
Do you ever think when you're all aloneAll that we can be, where this thing can go?Am I crazy or falling in love?Is it real or just another crush?"
Regina; When i look at you, are you holding back like the way you do? ILY.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Walked to Semb mrt station. The mrt station is fucking full. I boarded the train. I'm the last few. So obviously, no more space. Just right for me. But these two Thai guys insisted on boarding even when there is not even a single fucking space for an ant lor. And they squeezed me like no tomorrow. Macham fuck la. Cb, cannot wait for next train meh? Squeeze me until i cant breathe. I cant even stand properly lor. Behind me is also another guy. Also squeezing. Mother fuckers. I've had enough so i alighted at Admirlty. Wahpiang. i swear i hate those Thai guys. I alighted and i curse that train to fall off the track -.- Was so fucking du lan lor. Zzz, squeeze until liketat. Took the next train home which wasn't that squeezy. I HATE PEAK HOURS TRAIN RIDES. AND PEOPLE WHO SQUEEZE THEIR WAY THROUGH EVEN WHEN THERE'S NO SPACE. WHATS YOUR PROBLEM?! _l_
Reached home. Zzzzzzz, full of chinaaaa people. Feel more fucked up. Stayed inside my room.
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3more days. nothing much. IMY :// I need you to be there for me. There's so many things which i wanna say to you, share with you.
Regina; i'm staring at a broken door. Looking at a broken me. In a broken home.
Monday, September 22, 2008

Regina; pls. treat me better. i really love you.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Actually only two pictures. zzz. cos i haven upload. will upload next time. Kinda lazy.
Friday, September 19, 2008
After service learning, we went to slack opp mrt station those blocks. cant remember what block. talked, laugh, took pictures. but only gona post a few. I'm glad i've friends like you guys :]
Jiawei high-ed all the way. i was laughing until i cough so hard.
Than miss loh called sherman. After that call everything change. Everyone was moodless. Jiawei tried to cheer them up. but like no use. In the end headed home.
ITS. NOT. YOUR. FAULT. we didn't blame you. stop thinking abt it.
Lastly,
I MISS YOU!
its like i'm on my own. but its fine :]
i just didn't want you to feel alone.
i'll be there for you even if you dont need me.
已经长大的约定 那样珍惜
与你聊不完的曾经 而我已经分不清
你是友情还是错过的爱情
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Regina; i'm waiting for you. 6 more days :]
Thursday, September 18, 2008
i remember those days we go school tgt, we di siao habsah tgt, we study tgt. In the past you will always be the first one, ready for exams, or nagging at us that we should be ready for exams, you always have all the things needed for exams. and now?.. ...
Really thank you for at least trying to go to school for a day or two. you said you would quit if you cant cope. i hope you will really try hard on monday. Hope you will keep your promise, and see you at mac on monday, waiting for me to go school.
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Been having lots of friendship problems recently. All i can say is, friends come and go. some old photos above.
I'm not blaming anyone for the fact that things turn out this way. But if i ever did, i'm sorry. i dont mean it. really. SO STOP. BLAMING. YOURSELF.
Will my friends still be my friends? 10years down the road will we still be the same? or izzit even difficult to just continue for 10days? idk. i really dont know.
Everyone is changing hence its difficult to keep things as it use to be. lack of communication? maybe.
last but not least,
I LOVE ALL OF YOU. REALLY. without you guys, i wouldn't be what i am today. wouldn't be standing so strong. thank you so much. for always being there as a listening ear, an adviser, to pick me up when i fall, to stop me from doing wrong things. thank you very much.
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I dont wish to see all of use fall apart. i wanna keep this bonding as strong as ever.
Amelia, Amanda, Wanxian, Reny, Jiawei, Sherman, Jaslin, Rina, Huiting, Yuqing, Peiyun. lets do this all together, for better. {i actually hesitate to include some name(s) but i still include anyway.} let me know if i missed you out.
Regina; it takes two hands to clap. i miss you dearly.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
how long will our friendship last? idk. I seriously miss you my dear. when you're not in school. Every morning i'll be disappointed when i dont see you at mac. really, i get disappointed, very. i'm sure the rest also feel the same. i'm sorry girl, i'm quite disappointed in you.
but do you think its worth it to work during sch hours? maybe you think so.yes, zoo kfc has a high salary. money isn't everything. money destroys everything. you wanted to become a kfc manager. which is what you want. but do you know that being even a kfc manager needs at least O levels qualification? not trying to "pour cold water" but just want you to think.
I'm also sorry for not always being there when you need me to. but i will in future. if the old you is back. i really miss the old you. very very much. this is all i can do as a friend. please take good care of yourself. really hope to see you in school one day. or one morning.. at mac. waiting for me.
well, if you happen to see this. i really wish you would think it through. THOROUGHLY. yes, it takes time for things to settle down. We'll always be there for you :)
Monday, September 15, 2008
Went out with my dajie, erjie and mamat roz today! =D aft school, went home to change, rushed out after that. went to bukit gombak to meet dajie and mamat roz. they were late, i waited abt 30mins? then we went to vivo meet my erjie. went to shop, talk, eat. waited for roz and dajie to break fast. den we went to sakae sushi. ate alot alot. blah blah. went shopping again. haha, dajie and erjie bought alot of things. i only bought an esprit towel, and some junk food-.- LOL. hahaha. of course not i pay la. then cabbed home. yes, super tired. i sure miss my sisters. so long never meet.
woo~ and i look forward to dajie and mamat roz's wedding in november. hahaha-.-
whatever. -.-
i miss you. didn't really see you nowadays-.-
yes, wht u said tt day still lingers in my mind.
lol, becos of that, i'm gona learn how to play.
so next time can challenge you =D
amelia promised to learn tgt. jiawei too. let us all learn =]]]
Regina; must learn how to play. i miss you like hell!
Sunday, September 14, 2008
hello. today is mooncake festival. all i did the whole day was online and online and online. while i guess, all the other families went to celebrate this festival? hahaha-.- guess it has been more than 5years since my family celebrated anything together le bah. or even have a dinner together. as in, sit together and eat. sad to say, dont even have family photo. yes yes, so different from so many other families. Could say that i'm jealous, full of envy. wishing that i could be like them. Well but who really cares how i think? we live our own lives anyway. blah, whatever.Tomorrow there's school-.- i swear i hate school. having to face all those fucktards. Not including my friends of course. and i swear, i hate sitting right infront.
something you said made my day today! =D
Regina; sweetheart; i need a chance. idk how long can i wait.
Photographer : Regina


Yes, i still remember when we were sec 1. we became brothers & sisters. I sure miss those times. It's still the same. & it never will change. Sherman aka Da Bao; Regina aka Er Bao; JiaWei aka San Bao. Those nicks were sure old fashion. Lol, but who cares? hahahaha. Thanks for being there when i needed you guys. Really appreciate. Glad to have the two of you in my life! =D
Saturday, September 13, 2008

Anyway, came back home abt 11.40pm. went out with jiawei, amelia they all. went to jason's house. after that went downstairs play candles, whatever. nothing much. ate mac, and went home.
I swear i really miss you. i kept thinking and thinking. i'm suffering from sleepless nights. thinking why i didn't have a chance and will there be a chance? ya, i know you'll never see these-.- but i just need to let it out. i'll wait, i dont care.
i cant get any gifts for you. but guess i'll just wish you. cos for now i treat you as a friend. you said if i treat you as friend dont buy. tell you something. i wanna be more than friends-.- hahaha-.- whatever. much loves!
Regina; cant believe that i'm a fool again.
nothing much, my flu and cough is getting worst. think i'm having slight fever. i wanna get well soon! ;[
flu and cough are killing me. cough till my lungs like gona burst-.- whatever.
oh, i forgot to post my results on thursday. but i already handed them in. but al i can remember are these :
English : A1
Maths : A2
Chinese: B3
Combined humanities: B4
Combined science : U
F&N : B3?
lol.cant really recall.
could say that i'm satisfied with my results. best results for the past 3years.
Last but not least.
Its 10th month today ;//
should i be happy or sad? idk.
Regina; 10th month, i miss you; ily. love, i. need. a. chance. now.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
around 1am, was getting ready to sleep, still feeling very sick. cant sleep, toss and turn till about 3 am. buay tahan, i sit up and then suddenly got the feeling to vomit again. so ran to toilet, vomit again. went back to bed aft that, cant sleep also. morning 6am, started preparing for school. but i went late for school today.
nothing much in school, aft sch went for motivationing workshop. damn cool! went to eat at 406 after that. aft that went home. nothing much.
Still feeling very sick now. down with flu, sore throat and keep on vomit. Roar! somebody save me please.
there's service learning tmr. wah , sian la! SL sucks lor. f-ing boring.
Anw, i'm going beijing with mrs tay. olympics study trip again. woo~ damn loving it la. go back beijing, makes me remember my 80 bucks -.- hahahahaha. it was fun though. nevermind =D
Tags replied---
babydeeny.: I love you too!! =DD
beidi: yes yes, i'm a nan ren. not happy? lol
Darrenツ: thanks. of course lah. i lisyen de songs confirm nice de :}
Regina; i miss you i miss you i miss you like hell! ;[
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Didn't go for school today. My reason for not going,
I'm too tired + overselpt + stomach cramps = never go school.
anyway, sorry.
Woah, been thinking ytd night. Alot of things lah. Came to a conclusion of it. I think i'm fine now! Be it Family, Friends or Love. Think i'll just let nature takes its course. Shall kan zhe ban.
Actually, i miss my friends 0.o hahahahaha -.- i'm serious..
Gona go school tomorrow.
Anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHAN WANXIAN! =DDD
much loves!
Regina; you ain't there when i need you to.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Today went to school, glad that i wasn't late. blah blah. nothing much in school. But i swear i hate the feeling i have. I hate school now. Shitzxzx, Crap.
Aft school, went to dance. miss liew was late. Whatever, who gave a shit to her anyway? -.- Dance, Dancing, Danced. Went home after that. reached home, onlined, offlined. Was about to go out to meet amanda about 8pm.
Saw my mother.
Mum: eh, uncle proposed to me.
Me : so? tell me got f-ing use?-.-
Mum: I dont know wanna accept anot, very fan.
Me : seriously, its not my problem. But all i wanna tell you is you can accept him. I'm dead sure if you do so, you'll never see me again. And i'm damn sure abt that.
Mum: Whats wrong with you huh?! {shouts at me}
Me : Well, nothing. {storm out of the house and meet amanda}
Teared abit as i was walking to meet her. well, if she really acceepts him. i swear in her fcuking face, she'll nt see me again. best even, sever ties ok. i dont care. since you dont even care abt my feelings, why should I? anyway, it doesnt make a difference at all whether i have you as a mother or not. yes, all i can say is. you never try to understand how i feel, & i know you never will. whatever. just get it clear i'll get my fuck face out of your life if you chose to accept him. isn't that what you always wanted? any amount of tears i cry will never help. i know, i know it too well. crying and crying wishing you'll just understand someday and change for better. its all craps. you never know your mistake.
In summary, its a terrible day. i hate it. i swear i hate it. Family, Friends, Love.. all ain't working well for me. this life is SHIT.
Regina; yes, i wish you were here to listen. were you? ://
Monday, September 8, 2008
"when we're walking home abt 11plus. i swear! i swear i had the fright of my life. here it goes.. almost every morning when i go school, i'll see this semb sec guy. he'll always stare at me and that makes my hair stand. cos he always give that pervertic look, like !#$%^ _l_
today aft school went to mac with amelia. i was telling amelia this. right after i say finish. that semb sec guy appeared in mac-.- yes. i nearly chua sai. quickly ran off with my bag and amelia-.-
met wanxian to go home aft that. boarded the bus, that guy just reached busstop. heng the bus just started moving. damn suay lor -.-
anw, sorry for this long post. i'm off to meet amanda again. hopefully i dont get to see th semb sec guy again. omg, now i'm worried later i've to walk home alone T___T
Regina; i miss you you you you! friends are changing, yes.. all are.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Hey, still remember these? It was 2007's christmas present. I've kept it till now. the biscuits inside are still there! haven even finish. LOL, i think spoil already. well, nothing much.
Today rot at home whole day. use laptop. er jie is going genting tmr. will miss her one! anyway, played msn games just now -.- hahaha. its fun okay. just that i dont seems to win. whatever. and some people have crab to eat -.- ROAR. i want eat also. LOL, just kidding.
Today is the last day of holiday! OMG. so fast man. i feel like i've just sarted my holidays. Tmrw's school. YAY for somethings and _l_ for somethings -.- LOL. anyway, see everyone in school tmrw. hopefully i wouldn't oversleep.
Rushing off to meet amanda now. gona go Civic's Mac to eat. been craving for mac. LOL.
Goodnight, readers! with much loves!
Regina; i miss you like hell! i swear! =D
Saturday, September 6, 2008
Den went upstairs. cos they have appointment, to cut hair -.- and i have to wait again. initially was only there to cut hair. but that person manage to get my sis and kenny to dye their hair. & i waited and waited and waited. ended up.. waited for about 3 and a half hours. which is so lethargic-.- i must say, the people working at the saloon there is damn weird-.- a guy wearing red shirt keep staring at me . like !#$%^& macham i alien -.-
went to eat pizza hut aft that.must say the service is no good. and its f-ing cold. aft that went to buy mp3. my sister wants it -.- they escort me to somewhere mear mrt station, and i trained home.
The journey was long, tiring, cramp, and a chinese ah pek was staring at me. seriously, whats with people these days? ROAR. reached home about 11.20pm.
I'm so tired. tired of going out, waiting for people, taking public transport. shitzxzxz. how how? but holidays are ending way too fast! i haven enjoy enough yet. its just starting to get fun -.- whatever. school _l_ , get it? Maybe on the other side, its better, haha-.- at least i get to see what i want. But i get to see what i dont want too.
TAGS REPLIED:
To Eezy: Thanks. but dont call me pole dancer.
To Huiting: Thanks! i know i'm sexy anyway. LOL-.-
To AMANDA: LOL. i'll try okay. Haha. hope to see you on monday too! if i'm going school. cos i'm planning not to go already -.- LOL. tiring man.
Regina; "dont you see, i'm not the only one for you but you're the only one for me"
Friday, September 5, 2008
went to plaza singapura aft that. ate ljs there. around 9plus train down to bugis. went there to shop. i was suppose to get presents instead i got "presents" for myself-.- spend sround 50 bucks T__T roar. i'm gona save money! cos two people's birthdays are coming up! and i have to save money to get them presents. i already thought of what to get :]
reached home about 11.30pm. super lethargic. gona rest early today i think.
TAGS REPLIED--
To Huilay : okay, sure. will link you soon! loves :]
To YUQING ♥: muacks-.- lol
To AMANDA: yeah! we just met :]] had fun with you!
To Sherman: you got a problem there ? LOL
To Jiawei: i agree. LAUGHS. ROFL!
To kzd: can see that! lol. he shang! :::
To Rina: glad that she didn't :]
To jas : thanks! will link you soon!
To Cherlynn: i love you too! be cheerful man! like the way you smile :]
To darren : thanks for tagging !
GOODNIGHT, readers.
Regina; its a shame that we had to be this way.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Rotted at home the whole day. chatted on msn, etc. tomorrow going yishun support my yokeqing girlfriend at mac. got value meal. help her to reach her target of 69. so must support her! :] at yishun. anyone interested please sms me alright. going with jiawei. anyway, its from 12pm - 2pm.
nothing much. Goodnight! :]
Regina; a chance, just a chance. jx jx jx :] ROFL. 0.O its nt a name.
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
After that, wanxian met des des at semb. i met amelia. we went our own ways. talked to amelia alot of things. man! i miss her. her navel piercing is damn cool can T_T but i'm not gona pierce. cos i scared pain. Lol. i love amelia! & wanxian :] i also love my girlfriend, yokeqing :}
Regina; jiayou for N lvls. and of course your tournament. nth much.









