Love is indeed so brittle

One moment, love each other like hell. Next moment started to drift apart.From strangers, become friends, become lovers and back to strangers. Its how all relationship comes to an end isn't it? Its like a cycle. over and over again. Love is so brittle. How many can actually stand hardships and walk the rest of their life with their love ones? Not many in fact. So friend, if anyone of you have been out of love recently, dont worry, You've still got a long way to go.

Well, suddenly no mood. Kinda mood swing. Don't feel like talking. Nothing seems to cheer me up. Somehow, someway, I just don't have the feeling to be high.

Where is the right one for me? Will our love be as brittle? Should be.

I just can't live without you.

And I want you to know.

I need you like I've never needed anyone before.

Through the monsoon

Went to school today. Nothing special. After school went for dance. Today's practise was alright. Just a little bit confusing. Starting to enjoy dance once again. Ummm, bused to cwp after that. Had dinner at Ljs with Amanda. & we walked home.

Damn! I'm fucking tired. I wanna sleep! But I can't. Cause some buyers are coming my house to see. If its successful, I'll be moving out real soon. To where? I don't know.

Tomorrow most probably meeting Amanda, Rina, Jaslin, Amelia, Sherman(?) to go sentosa. I wanna go tanning. Anyone wanna join? Sms me kay!

Oh, & i really miss muffin alot alot. T-T

May update again later!

Damn, pls break the silence between us.

If you're not the one

There's dance tomorow. Manzxzxz, I haven got my track pants and I already forgotten the steps. Tomorrow die liao lor. Walao -.- DANCE OR DIE. I choose die. Joking only. Okay, anyone has got track pants? :/




But when it comes to me, you dont even notice me.

I'll remember you

Hello! Firstly, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, though it seems to be a lil late. But it's still cny. Alright. I've got a hard time uploading all those photos taken these few days. Waiting for it to load is like a million years. The photos are not in order.

First but also the last. I'm thankful for everything

Had reunion dinner just now. Well, its the first and last reunion dinner our family had. Dad came home today. I was really happy today. I'm thankful for everything. I'm really really happy, but sad at the same time. I'm happy because this is our first reunion dinner. Sad because it's gona be our last.

Yeah, I was so touched that I actually can't hold back my tears anymore. I cried. Ya, you all may think like.. It's just a reunion dinner. Need to cry meh? But it's something to me. Something I never had. The warmth I always wanted. I finally feel it. I finally feel like we're a family. It's my first time feeling like this but it's the last time. I want time to stop there. So that I can enjoy the warmth i always wanted. After eating, watched tv and all. Yep, Dad left soon after. He called Da jie and asked her to thank mummy for her reunion dinner. Well, It's the last. I know i'm repeating many times. But it's really the last. Really really the last ];

A dinner to end to their marriage? It's gona be the last time they're sitting together to have a meal. No more chances. The chances of being back together is soooooo low. But this is a memorable day. Thanks for everything. Thanks for the warmth I've had today. I now know the feeling of being in a complete family. Even maybe for that 1 hour. I'm satisfied. That 1 hour will always go with me through life.

Love don't exist anymore


Time to update today's events! Woke up at 5 am today, Amanda morning call me. Got ready and met Amanda. We trained to semb to meet Julinan, Rina, Jiahui. Ate mac, talked, joked, laughed. Yes, we laugh really hard. & I wanna watch Fall out Boys Concert! Anyone intrested to go with me?? [;

After eating, went to blk 406 multi purpose hall. Sherman was there waiting. They practised their CNY dance. Around 7.25am we left for school. Had P.E first. Yep, ran to the temple and back. Stopped in between but i completed it! I didn't cheat [; Back to bball court, was forced to play bball by the PE teacher which i dont rmb her name. As i don't bother to do so. Lol. After PE, go for Chinese. Nothing much.

Left clas around 9.40am to dance studio. They changed and got ready, had final polishing and went to perform around 11.10am. Well, great job dancers! It's incredible that you guys danced so great only with 2 days of practise.

Mandy, it's alright to make mistakes! We all made mistakes when we're on stage too. Everyone will, when they are nervous. So don't worry & put it behind you! (:

After school, went for dance. Practise for SYF. Damn, so hard to catch up. Still alright. BUT! I don't understand Miss liew at all. Cause she keep changing this and that making me giddY. Okay, dancers jia you! We're gona make it through!

Alright, still got a long way to go before this year end cause it just started! Zzzz. I've walked through the long walks and I've got longer ones to walk. Those obstacles I've been through made me stronger. But sometimes these are too much to handle. I know perhaps I need a helping hand. Yet, I didn't let it out. Cause I don't think anyone can help. & I only trust myself. I don't know whats my point of writing these. But I don't know. Just felt like it suddenly. You can actually skip this part. But since you read till here, then continue lor ! XD

I've got coursework to do! Manzxzx. I wanna get it done before i go celebrate new year. But i'm too lazy to start. I seemed to lost interest in F&N. How?????

Oh ya, meeting Amanda tomorrow. To continue to buy CNY clothes. Sad thing is! Rina & Huiting can't join us. Well, guess it'll just be the two of us. Cause at first we thought, the more the merrier. But you know.. Maybe i'm the one with problems. Don't understand? Try asking me. I may explain. BUT i may not too -.- Alright, sorry for this boring post. Rina is waiting to read this super boring post. Hahahaha! Please tag me often people! Thank you!

If anyone wanna join Amanda & Me in getting CNY clothes please sms us. The more the merrier you see.

I'll end it off with this!

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Cute right! Okay, everyone rest early. Goodnight! Till next time [;

The more I wanna forget, the more I can't let go.

The more I don't wanna miss you, the more I miss you.

The more I don't want you to leave, the more you want to leave.

Wake up call

I must go school. Can't go on likethis. I've woken up. I'm gona study hard. Not too late right? :/ Hmm, I must force myself to go school. I'm sorry to disappoint _ _ _ _ _ . Sorry, thanks for telling me. I will go to school. Without him as motivation, I still can go on! [: Yep, I'm gona put study as my priority. Belley, teach me maths leh. Lol.

Kay, yesterday went out with belley to get CNY clothes. Bought only a long top and a backpack for school. I love belley! [;


Well, I guess some people just come & go. This is life isn't it? ]; Maybe if its not fated, it never will be fated. No matter how hard you try or wait. Saying that i'm gona give up sounds so easy. But it's never so. How long do I really need to really give up? Maybe the more you hurt me, the more I'll try to give up. But the more I can't bear. Telling you i've given up is just so that you'll have no worries. This path had not been easy at all. Hot and cold is how you treated me. Well, i guess, we'll just leave it to fate. & I still miss you alot. Especially when the night is dark and lonely.

I need to sleep early today. I'm all set to school already! Please morning call me tomorrow [;


I must go to school..
I must go to school..
I must go to school..
I must go to school!!