"I'll put this picture down and maybe get some sleep at night"

Actually decided not to go for school today. Cause I was really tired and my shoulders are aching. But ended up going because I know I'll feel guilty if I don't go. First 3periods was Chemistry. I was literally dozing off. English also, Maths also. Physics I also slept. Because Raj wasn't here! Awww. I thought Amos would come. But he didn't today.

After school went for O level chinese oral. Sherman, Jiawei and me were laughing in the hall. And the teacher said we'll be last to be invigilate-.- but in the end we ended earlier then the others. Lol. After that, went to have lunch and went up to hall again for dance. Miss Amilliyah off the aircons and only on the fans. Of course lah, she's not the one dancing, don't feel hot. While she sit there and use laptop, we're all sweating like pigs. Dance improved a little every practise. But I guess it's not enough. As the date is drawing nearer, the more nervous and anxious I feel!!

Tomorrow got to wake up very early. Yes, VERY EARLY. Cause we're suppose to perform tomorrow morning for the Sec 3 Cohorts. Zzzz. I'm not nervous now, but I think I'll be tomorrow. SIGH! I'm super lethargic. I need a long rest. Seriously a long one, I wish I can sleep for years before waking up again.

Goodluck to all dancers for tomorrow's performance!


There you go so perfectly, the kind of flawless I wish I could be.
What I miss most is talking to you. I imagine running into you in
a busy market. I wanted to talk to you, but I don't have the slightest
idea what we would have said.

You said you missed me but it sounds so fake

Regina: Fuck you lah! / Rina : uh?! *smiles happily

I'll skip about school. After school helped Mrs Tay with some stuffs and went for lunch and dance! Today's dance was mainly polishing our steps. Urgh, I still can't get some of it right ): Tried to lift Amanda with Yuqing and Sherman. I was suppose to support her with my shoulders. God damn, it hurts so much right now. But Amanda, no worries. Not your fault man! :] And I accidentally hit Yuqing's teeth :0 SORRY! T-T

Today our dear Rina some sort of sprained her neck. Haha, she she can't speak. Cause when she speak very pain. She was using sign language, and seems like only Jiahui can understand. I had peace while having dinner today! Cause Rina can't talk! HAHAHA. Okay la, I sound so bad. Get well soon man! Feels so weird without your laughter and noisy-ness.

Oh, almost forgot. When I was outside com lab today with FNN students, Mr Felix walked past and checked our skirts. Guess what? I'm the unlucky one-.- As well as Lydia. I swear Felix's words are fucking digusting. Say what, wanna wear short skirt, wear shorter abit lah, not short enough. Still say will give us all the attention we need. Say give us face somemore. FUCK YOU LAH! Oh, he caught my orange socks too. Ask me to take it out infront of the whole class and him. Make me fucking malu. DAMN. STUPID BALD-Y. Go Beijing 101 lah. FUCK FACE _l_

Sherman is in love with Chocolate Chips! :].

I guess the best way is to pretend nothing happened. Maybe thats what you're wishing for too. I've ran out of reasons and excuses to contact you. I always tell myself its the last time. But I just can't control. I'm always finding excuses to chat with you. I'm tired of it, tired of lying to myself.

Sweetest

Photo Credits: (Amelia & Jaslin)
*I think I look so fugly.

If I haven't told you

Friday

As usual, went to school. But today was different, it was Sports Fest and Amelia's birthday! Met Amanda and trained + walked to school. Sherman woke up late. So didn't meet him. Sports fest started, sad thing is we didn't join anything. So we had nothing to do at all. Went to support people who play frisbee. I think Huiting was the one who say I go see frisbee is see shuai ge! Lol. I didn't see Mr Amos! )): He's super suave. Yay! He'll be our physics teacher while Mr Raj is away. Hohoho! You'll see me in school for 2 weeks full alr. Hahaha. Or maybe on days that has got physics. Hahaha.

Back to Sports Fest, watched Frisbee with Sherman and Huiting they all. Then went to look for Amelia and Jaslin at the field there. My class boys playing soccer, supported them. Though they lost in the end. But good job! (: Went to eat at canteen after that. Something very interesting happen. WeiQiang was dancing-.- Yeah, his dance is "robotic." I mean, why disgrace yourself when you can't dance. And everyone cheered for him-.- For the fact that I think he's making a fool out of himself. But he's quite kelian also la. Khairul joined him also-.- Khairul's dance can be said as "sexy." -.- You can never imagine how he bend and get up. Wonder why they didn't join dance. But good thing also la. Lol.

After school, was super tired. Dragged my feet to meet Jiawei. Went to Amelia house after that. Talk, laugh and went home. Around 7plus went to meet Amelia and Jaslin.

Trained to Clarke Quay. We were laughing our arse off in the train. Hahaha. Reached there, went to pub. With Cherlynn, her boyfriend and two other of their friends. But they left early. So we stayed there till 2 plus. Got this guy keep wanting to make Amelia drunk-.- He is totally cmi one lor-.- He even give us his name card, ask us to drink tgt with him next time. I took the card and tore it into half-.- LOL. But he didn't see it la! If not I'll be so dead. Cabbed home, bathed and slept.

I know it's super wordy. Okay, I've got pictures! But more pictures with Amelia. I'll wait for her to send me.

Our Ah Jee face so red lor!!

Saturday

I woke up around 9plus. Did nothing at all-.- All I did was sms, watch tv and nothing else! What a boring Saturday!

SYF is coming so fast la! I think I'm not prepared for it. Left with only 5 practises with Miss Liew. Which is so not enough! ): SIGH! Dancers, work hard!

"After awhile I couldn't remember pieces of you, as if it was a punishment from you to me"

I've ever wonder if I've never told you what i wanted.

But I couldn't picture it out.

Would things be still the same as today?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMELIA!!!

Happy Birthday Fei yi! Hahaha. Still remember how we quarrel last time? I know it's kinda stupid to bring it up. Lol. But, well... SEE NOW WE'RE GOOD FRIENDS! Lol. Okay lah, actually I don't really know what to write. Okay okay. Hahaha. Happy Birthday. See you in school, birthday girl! (:

True or False

You claimed this and did that. How would you ever expect me to believe you? Sometimes, I really don't know which part of your sentence is true. I don't know what to believe. You're the only one who knows the truth.

You claimed your love, but you acted so differently.

Second Chance

Yesterday had self-training for dance. Because Miss Liew cancelled the whole week of dance. So it's time to take some initiative right? The process was horrible. Everyone was slacking. But it seems to be different when there are teachers or Miss Liew. It's time to wake up. Treat this as a wake up call. There'll be another self-training tomorrow. Hope tomorrow will be different from yesterday's one. Remember to bring your props.

I was very very tired yesterday. To the extend that I reached home, bathed and went straight to bed. Till I was being pull out from bed to have dinner. I nearly had my face in my rice when I was eating. Yeah, this was how tired I was.

Tired to the extend that I skipped school today. Yeah, AGAIN! -.- My head was spinning and spinning like a spinning top or something. I hate the fact that I always skip school. It never seem that I'll be in school for an entire week. I didn't want it to happen either. Countless of wake up calls, wake up messages, alarms, sometimes its just didn't work. I hate myslef for skipping school so many times. I feel so useless for being unable to wake up to attend school like always. _l_ Doubt I'm gona pass my N levels either,


Pictures at UCC (Credits_Huiting) :

^^^I like this picture (:

Now you're gone.

I realised how my love for you was so strong.

Its never the same, if you leave me halfway.

Today missed school on purpose. Because I came home late yesterday from UCC. Yesterday's dance full dress rehersal at UCC was great! We reached there early. And some of us went to take some photos. I'll upload them when Huiting send me! (: (Huiting, send me lehhhh. LOL.)

Alright, went back to school for dance as usual. Met Sherman. Well, he skipped school. His plan was successful. HAHAHA. Anyway, dance started. Did warm ups. And few people said that they're supposed to go for sports fest. Miss Liew was sort of angry/ frustrated, I think. Cause no one informed her earlier. So she cancelled the dance today, as well as the rest of the week. Which was very disappointing to some of us. Note, only some. All because of sports fest. Stayed in Dance Studio for awhile. And bused home after that.

I'm going school tomorrow! Sad thing is, there's no dance. And I didn't even touch my holidays assignments. I think there's a layer of dust already. Tomorrow die liao lor. Wish me luck then!

I'm fine alr, i suppose.

Amanda, hang tough! (insert heart shapessssss!)

Goodnight!

I'll say all the words that I know.
Just to see if it would show.
That I'm trying to let you know,
That I'm better off on my own.
This place is so empty, my thoughts are so tempting.
I don't know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it gets so crazy that no one can save me.

MORON

ONLY YOU WILL FUCKING BELIEVE EVERY FUCKING WORD HE SAID. ONLY YOU WILL TREAT HIM LIKE A KING. AND TREAT US LIKE A SLAVE. HE'S YOUR KING, WE'RE YOUR SLAVE. YOU'VE DID IT NOT ONCE, NOT TWICE. YOU BLAMED ME FOR SOMETHING I'VE NOT DONE. YOU KNOW WHAT? I FUCKING HATE YOU. WHEN YOU QUARREL WITH ME BECAUSE OF HIM. I TELL YOU WHAT LAH. JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE. YOU WANNA DO WHAT, YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS. I'M NOT GOING TO BE HIS SLAVE. NEITHER AM I GONA BE YOURS. IF YOU WANT A SLAVE GIVE BIRTH TO ANOTHER ONE WITH HIM, SINCE YOU LIKE IT SO MUCH. BET YOU'LL BE MORE THAN HAPPY. THIS IS ALWAYS WHAT YOU WANTED, ISN'T IT? BITCH!

He don't love you.
He's just using you.
You're a sex machine he needs.
While he's a coin you need.
Only you'll believe every single word he said.
You're so stupid.

Happy Birthday Hazwan!

Thanks for being a great listening ear!

Hope you've had a great day! (:

It's hard to be alone

Went to S'pore Expo today! With Jaslin, Rina and Amanda. Amanda and I were looking forward to Addidas Sale! But what a pity.. Need to queue up, 100customers per time. And the queue is like very long. So we gave up the idea.

Went to FoodFare. Enjoyed lots of yummy food! I love to eat! After that roam around like some spirits-.- Hahaha. Went to Hall4 I think. Robbinson's Sale. Walked around. Saw two pretty nice leggings/pants for dance. Didn't buy them in the end. Kind of regret now. Went off around 4plus. Off we go to Jaslin's house.

Slacked, played Guess the Sketch at Facebook. And around 8pm, bused home with Amanda. Here I am. Blogging.

Tomorrow going to UCC! Sigh, nervous. I'm feeling sick leh. Perhaps going for morning jog with Amanda tomorrow. Must lose some weight before SYF. Cause the costume very fitting. And I look fat in it. Urgh! ):

"Of course, the biggest question I have is: What if, say we happened to run into each other again, now that you've gone your way and I have gone mine? I like to think we'd go out to lunch, and even after all this time, I could probably still order for you and get it right.But these are not the details I wonder about. I wonder what would we be chatting about, what would you say? Maybe we would talk about why you would have left. I believe you thought that leaving could set you free, surely you know better now."

You're an angel in disguised

I don't know. Majority part of me hope it's just a prank you've played. Maybe a small part of it, I hope not . It's sort of.. Confusing. Seriously I don't know what I want. But I guess, you'll find someone else real soon (:

If you just realise, what I just realised.
We never have to wonder if we missed out on each other right now.
Its not the same, its never the same.
If you don't feel it too.

Not to worry, I'm still alive and kicking.
Just need some time to think it all over again.
And I'm sick. Sneezing like there's no tomorrow.
Sometimes, maybe I just needed someone to be there for me to fall back on.

One last thing,
Amelia cheer up kay!(: (insert lots of heart!)

I friggin' hate bamboos

Today early in the morning went to school with Amanda for dance, met Sherman too. Dance was okay lor but very tiring. Their provided lunch was sucky. Anyway, it wasn't provided. We had to pay for it. Wtf. That wasn't the worst part of today. Oh yeah, today tried on costumes. Was alright la. Dance practise ended at 3plus going 4pm. And we have to fucking stay back for games-.- Which was totally unnecessary. And I think they should let us go home and rest instead. But well, we have to go for the games.

Here comes the !#$%^ part. Our first station was at the parade square. This game was like, two persons have to support bamboos on their legs and another person walk on it. Yeah, the game start and I was the one holding the bamboo. In less than 20 seconds I was hurt. The girl who walked on the bamboo nearly fell or fell and so the bamboo just sort of flip/ fly. And it got into my eye. FUCK. Its was fucking painful. Ya, all Dinesh could say was go to the toilet and wash your eyes. Fuck off la. Its not dirt that got to my eyes. Wash for what?! Damn. So fucking painful that i teared. But I didn't cry because it was painful, it was because eyes are very sensitive. So obviously you'll tear la. And I feel very fucked up after that and didn't join for the rest of the games. My left eye is hurting so much that I'm having a slight headache now. Oh and there's a long scratch on my right now. Thanks to that bamboo. _l_

Worst of all, there's dance tomorrow _l_ I mean, its not dance that i don't like. I just hate waking up so fucking early for it.

Some pics:

I'm so not falling for you

I really dread going to dance tomorrow. It's so f early in the morning! And such long hours. Damn it man! 8am - 5.30pm leh!! Tell me how to survive? I rather you take a knife and stab me to death lor. I hope tomorrow never comes. SIGH! ):

I've got the urge to talk to you in msn.

But I know, I've got to control.

I know I'm not someone you would wanna talk to.

I'll just wait for you to talk to me.

I know it wouldn't happen.

I'm pretty sure.

Now I'm dying inside cause he found someone else.
Can't believe now I'm standing alone all by myself.

Hell week

This week of March holiday is indeed like hell. Monday to Sunday all fully packed with lessons and dance. It's even more tiring than when there's no holidays. I hope this week pass in a blink of an eye. I'm worn out already and it's only Tuesday.

Please save me! T-T

Race To Witch Mountain

Meet Belley and Liting today! Ate Burger King and we went to watch "Race to Witch Mountain." It was a very awesome movie! The little boy in the show is very cute! Known as Burke in the show. If you haven't watch it, go catch it now!

A taxi driver gets more than get bargained for when he picks up two teen runaways. Not only does the pair possess supernatural powers, but they're also trying desperately to escape people who have made them their targets.

Sweet stuffs

I will be meeting Belley and Liting tomorrow! I can't wait man! (:

13

I'm sad because its 13 today.

1year 4months back then..

Expressions

What is life about when you can't even show your feelings? When you're unhappy, angry, upset, you have to act like you're happy and fine with it? It feels so terrible to act like I'm fine with everything. When obviously I'm not. I don't like it when I'm force to do something I don't like. Or should I say, I don't like to act like I'm happy or I'm fine with things going on likethat.

Fuck this sh!t.

I should let it go, let it pass

I didn't know you had to go. You've had enough of our distance. Before I had the chance to say, I'm staying with you for the rest of my life. Don't keep telling me these words. You don't know how much it hurts. And I'll promise you eternity, if you promise me your stay. But now it's too late.

I will go on without him. Like a fool who's too sure. I'm like a bird who's lost her wing, a fire without its flame. I don't know how to be strong, when my love has to move on.

Screamed

I hate to be screamed at. I'm washing my hands off. Well, missed school today. Don't ask me why. Cause it'll be the same old reason over and over again. Whatever. Will be going back to school for dance later.

This life indeed sucks to the core.
If I've got a choice, I wanna die young.

Be strong

Cheer up. I know it doesn't help. Hearing your voice from the call just now really worries me alot. I don't really know what is going on. All I know is that these few days or this couple of weeks, you're very sad. I don't know how to help or how to comfort you. I know, you took lots of courage to accept him. Now that I think.. He's hurting you. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe there are some things that I do not know. But from what i see is that, everyday you're living in agony. It hurts me to see you like this. But neither do I want you to put up a strong front. I don't want you to tell me you're fine when you're not. I know how hard is it on you. But please be strong. Thats all that I can really do. I hope that you're fine right now.

Love will only be treasured and cherished when it's gone. Maybe it's true that guys are jerks.

Vulnerable

I quit playing your mind guessing games. I've had enough of it. I'm not good at it. Why don't you tell me what you want instead of me guessing all the time?

Please don't tell me that I'm the only one that's vulnerable.

Your slow shaking fingertips show that you're scared like me,

So let's pretend we're alone.

& it's true I can't go on without you.

I promise I can be anyone, I can be anything.

I promise I could be what you need.

Never Ending Friendships!

06/03/09 Friday
Went to North Point to have Japanese Food with Lingyin and Belley. A great variety indeed. Let's go again some time! Walked around to wait for Kitty. In the end met her at Cwp. We went to watch movie. Watched "PUSH" . The movie is awesome! I wanna have supernatural powers too! It's so cool! Go watch it now, if you have not! Went home around 11plus?

07/03/08 Saturday

Met Sherman around 3plus going 4pm. Met Jaslin and Jiawei at Bishan. Took train to City Hall. I went to find my sister to get my stuffs. And train to Bugis with them. Cabbed to Arab Street. Jaslin ordered cheese fries, and we started shisha-ing while wating for Amelia. After Amelia came, shisha, etc.. Left the place around...6plus or7? Forgot. Headed to Bugis, Amelia and Jaslin ate Nasi Lemak. After that, we went to Bugis Junction. Went to take Neoprints. It has been a long time since we last took it together. Hahaha. Headed home soon after.