Cause today your words felt like a knife..

If you love the wind, why do you still close the window?

If you love the rain, why do you still open the umbrella?

If you love the sun, why do you still hide from it?

& if you love someone, why do you push them away...

Sometimes I would just feel alone. Even when somebody is beside me or when I'm with a group of friends. Maybe it's just me but it sort of seems like I've long detached myself from the world and from everyone else. Or is it the other way round? Stupid thoughts keeping me awake. I hate distance. I hate feeling lonely. 

Shouldn't have thought of sharing what's inside of me because what everyone does is just spread it and make things worst. But then again, I cannot blame anyone. Sometimes the irony is that one wants to help but wants to make me feel bad because it didn't turned out as expected. It's a feeling I can't fathom. I just feel vexed like fucking vexed why would things turn out this way. It's worsening as the day goes by..

In conclusion, I should probably have just kept it to myself and be thankful that I've no one to share it to.

Nobody understands the heart & thoughts of a failure. Feeling nothing but inferior to everybody else. Whatever anybody said, it's easier said than done..