Keeping faith

I only want a peaceful life, a simple one. its okay if both of you dont get along and divorced. yes, you two have divorced. & i have to act like i dont care. both of you get to live your own life now. i cant do anything to change the fact & i'm fine with it. dont ever ask me to choose between the both of you. dont threaten to disown me or say i side with him or wht. tell you something,.. if i can choose, i rather not to be here.

bring your guy home. i'm fine with it. close one eye. BUT DONT EXPECT ME TO CALL HIM. EVEN IF YOU BEAT THE HELL OUTTA ME, I STILL WUN CALL. GET IT RIGHT! AND HE'S STAYING AT MY HSE, DONT EXPECT ME TO RESPECT HIM. I WILL RESPECT HIM, WITH MY ASS! i will never never give in to you, pls get it right. call me whatever you want, say i'm disrespectful, whatever. i still wouldn't give a damn. because i'm so so tired. scold me, hate me all you want. say its my fault, say i dont give you face. i didn't ask to be born likethis. if i can choose, my life would be more happier den now. definitely better!

dont you think you've changed? i just wanna go back to those times whenever i reach home, you'll always be there.. with lunch prepared for me. now.. whenever i'm back home.. the house is either full of chinaaas, and you're nowhere to be found or you're home with tt guy or preparing to go out. and i have to eat on my own and fend for myself. and in the night, you;re either at other man's hse or at home slping or worst even, dead drunk. and where were you when i needed someone to talk to? did you realised when your daughter wasn't in good mood? or do you even bother to be a listening ear? ever thought of why your daughter become likethis? because of all of you. i didn't ask to be like this. i never want to be likethis too. i hate it when he's in my hse. thats always why we'll quarrel. dont "please" me to call him. i will neverdo so.

please dont force me to lose my temper.i'm so sick and tired. this is getting worst and worst. i'm still wishing that someday, when i reach home.. you'll be there for me with lunch prepared.

yes, it takes two hands to clap. i'm gona shut up and go out soon. i dont know where i'm going cos i didn't even plan to go out in the first place. i guess, now i have to.


this time, i think.. you were sort of there for me. thanks and i really appreciate it.



Regina; broken down like a mirror smashed to pieces.