just reached home. i screwed my geography and chemistry. sure fail lah. tmrw's paper also, physics. english sure can pass. but physics,.. like !#$%$^@ irritating. forget it, fail den fail -.- anw, went to eat aft school. not everyone is really happy?-.- well, nevermind about it. its okay. went home straight aft that.
reached home, saw my mum. and i remembered today she went family court with my dad. well, her friend was in my house too. i went to the kitchen to wash my hand. than her friend which is a man, call me.. ,
that man : " girl ah, ask you ah.."
me : (look at him.)
that man : " i saw your father today, i talked to him. he say he wanted to bring you to your grandma hse to stay but you refuse to. and he said you didn't want him anymore, izzit true?"
me: (shake my head) " no" {i was thinking, its nt tt i dont want. is i cant. and whts your problem anyway.} [ i was rather upset by what he said] i walked back to my room.
i sat down on my bed. his words keep repeating itself in my mind. " he said you didn't want him anymore" yes, this sentence. i was upset about this. tears started pouring out. thinking of those times we've had. i want him, i didn't say i dont. i dont know why he's thinking this way. but is not i dont want him. i have so many things to think about. if i do this, it'll affect another person. if i chose to stay with him, my mum's gona sever ties with me. and if i stay with my mum, he's thinking that i dont want him anymore. i really dont know what to do.
oh, fuck.
Regina; so please, let me be free. i just wish, you were here to share my burdens.
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