Keeping faith

Hello.
Today went to school, glad that i wasn't late. blah blah. nothing much in school. But i swear i hate the feeling i have. I hate school now. Shitzxzx, Crap.

Aft school, went to dance. miss liew was late. Whatever, who gave a shit to her anyway? -.- Dance, Dancing, Danced. Went home after that. reached home, onlined, offlined. Was about to go out to meet amanda about 8pm.

Saw my mother.

Mum: eh, uncle proposed to me.
Me : so? tell me got f-ing use?-.-
Mum: I dont know wanna accept anot, very fan.
Me : seriously, its not my problem. But all i wanna tell you is you can accept him. I'm dead sure if you do so, you'll never see me again. And i'm damn sure abt that.
Mum: Whats wrong with you huh?! {shouts at me}
Me : Well, nothing. {storm out of the house and meet amanda}

Teared abit as i was walking to meet her. well, if she really acceepts him. i swear in her fcuking face, she'll nt see me again. best even, sever ties ok. i dont care. since you dont even care abt my feelings, why should I? anyway, it doesnt make a difference at all whether i have you as a mother or not. yes, all i can say is. you never try to understand how i feel, & i know you never will. whatever. just get it clear i'll get my fuck face out of your life if you chose to accept him. isn't that what you always wanted? any amount of tears i cry will never help. i know, i know it too well. crying and crying wishing you'll just understand someday and change for better. its all craps. you never know your mistake.


In summary, its a terrible day. i hate it. i swear i hate it. Family, Friends, Love.. all ain't working well for me. this life is SHIT.



Regina; yes, i wish you were here to listen. were you? ://