Keeping faith

Someone out there please get me out of here. I seriously had enough. I dont wanna be the middleman. I dont wanna sell this house. I want to stay here. I want us all to be happy just like any other. I dont ask for wealth nor big houses to live in. All I ever wanted was one family, staying together. Having nice warm meals prepared by my mother.
You see, we've never had a family dinner for almost 4years? Dont say you do everything for me. Because if thats the case, i want a family dinner and i'll be contented.

But all you ask me to do was to be a middleman. " Tell your papa ... " " Tell your mama.. "
You know its so heartbreaking? Why can other families live so happily and mine totally sucks like hell. All these years. i have to entertain not only "Tell your papa.." "Tell your mama.." There's still some fucking morons. " Where is your mother?.." I have to deal with my mother's relationships too!

Say i'm selfish. I dont care. I always hated my mother for having so many boyfriends. Even if she settled for one. I'll also hate her. Worst even if she wants to remarry. I'll never allow. Yes, i know i'm so fucking selfish and childish. I only think of myself and not her. She needs a new man in her life to spend the rest if her life with her. I know.. All these i know.. But i didn't want all that to happen. You know why? Its because i'm scared. I'm scared you would abandon me for your new family. I only have you now. If i were to lose you, i dont know what else to do. Oh fuck. You dont even know that huh.

I'm tired! I'm really am! No more middleman, no more selling house, no more boyfriends, no more crying. I really hate it! Someone please bring me to somewhere where i can have some peace.

Innocence is always brilliant.


Regina; where were you when i need you the most?