Keeping faith

You don't have to read this

You can now bloody sell this house. I don't give a fuck damn about it. Sell this house and throw me in a rubbish dump. I don't care. I'll be more than happy. It's all my fucking fault. I'm the one who caused all these. Right from the start, you shouldn't have given birth to me. Even if you did, you should have chuck me in a rubbish bin or take a knife and stab me to death. I cry on the way to school. I cried like fuck. Everyone is looking. Nobody knows whats happening. They just keep staring. Fuck them upside down. I cried all the way to school. I cried during exams. My mind went totally blank. I'm sure I'm gona flunk my papers. Because I leave a 25mark question out. Good one. Fuck all these. It's all my fucking fault. I hate this life. I hate this world. What I hate most is this family. I dread coming home. I dread see-ing anyone at home. When you shout it in my face. That's it. It's the end. Since you've both decided to leave. I'm left all alone in this bloody house. I'm gona leave too. Just you wait. I've suffered enough. I'm sick of it. And I'm determined to fail my MYE. I don't give a fuck shit about it. I don't give a fucking ass about N level anymore. N level? SUCK COCK LAH. I hope I can just get swine flu and quaratine from everyone else. Oh ya. All is my fault. It's my fault to start with. I never say anyone of you blame me. But I just think it's my fault. Is that fair enough? I think its very fair. Every now and then I'm crying like a fucking baby who loses its mama. Thats enough. I've had it. All i know is cry. I can't do anything to salvage it. One day, I may just die in bed. Cool. I like this. Something is wrong, something is so wrong. I;m trying with all my might to laugh, to be happy, to laugh like a crazy woman. And I did it. People who hate me must be over the moon to see me sufering right now. Congragulations man. And you know what? I don't give a fucking shit about you. FUCK YOU UPSIDE DOWN.