Keeping faith

"There's nothing left here anymore, the room is cold, it's making me insane"

I've been having sleepless nights, I cry myself to sleep. Why can't I have what others have? I am always trying hard to pick up the pieces, trying hard to hold on to what's left of this family. As I'm typing this, I can no longer hold back my tears. She's leaving.. & there's nothing I can do to make her stay. What's this home without a mother, without a father? Everyone's slowly leaving, and at the end, I'm the only one left behind. Gosh, I really feel like dying..............

I can only watch you leave, I'm so fucking useless. Now I really don't know how not to blame myself for all that have happened. Who truly understand how I feel?

I've no mood for school. No words can describe how upset I am right naoz..