Keeping faith

" When you burst out crying alone in your room and realized that no one truly knows how unhappy you are because you don't want anyone to know."

Truth to be told, I'm amazed. So amazed by how I got through all the shitty days and that I'm actually still fucking alive. No no, I'm not trying to say that I'm standing strong. But I guess we all just got to learn to get used to certain things. Things like, how we don't have a time machine, how you longed for someone to be back by your side, or whatever. We always hope even though deep down we know that none of it is ever gonna happen.

Hope is the belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstances in one's life.

But have you ever thought about false hopes? It's not wrong to be positive. But all the false hopes that we are giving ourselves is eating us up. It's hurting us more than we ever know. We always thought that it's the other party that is hurting us.

Actually, we are the ones hurting ourselves.

I don't know what is my point of saying all these. Despite me knowing all these, I still continue hoping.. Ironic isn't it?

Something to think about for now.

Btw, I find this song really good!

" And I wish that you could give me a cold shoulder
And I wish that you could still give me a hard time
And I wish I could still wish it was over
But even if wishing is a waste of time
Even if I never crossed your mind"